I don't like change. No, I REALLY don't like change. I can't help it, I think it's in my genetic makeup. It makes me sick, anxious, emotional, crabby, and all out NUTS. I've recently had a few changes in my life that were not planned, but hopefully are going to work out for the best. Brian has a new job (that is such a long story that I won't go into here) and he's happy (he does not have this hangup and adapts pretty darn quickly to any situation).
SO here's the deal, I am getting a new job after4 years. If someone would have told me that Brian and I would BOTH be switching jobs in the same couple months I never would have believed it. This isn't something I jump into without thinking very hard about it. I like my job and love the people I work with. They are the reason this is SO hard, they cheered when I got pregnant, brought me lunch while I was on bed rest, and helped me through those first few days of daycare when I thought I'd die from missing the girls SO much. But, I need a change-there I said it. I'm self inflicting change because I know it's what is best for me, my family....and my girls. I wouldn't do it if it weren't best for them. I'll be getting off an hour earlier and my drive time is cut in half. I also want my girls to be proud of their mom and what she does for a job, I want to have more of a purpose and more responsibility (yes I want to add more to my plate, 2 babies is not enough). If I'm going to leave my girls every day to go to work, it should be more worthwhile then answering a phone. I'm probably putting too much pressure on this new job already...but I'm excited for it, and I think it's a perfect fit for me. This is really starting to sound like I'm trying to talk myself into something doesn't it? Maybe I am, because tomorrow is my last day. I also don't like that word. Last. It's SO final...
Someone recently told me without change there is no growth. So here we go, watch me grow!
Sorry to those who tune in to see pictures of my girls and hear fun updates:) But I needed to get that out, and it's my blog after all:) hee hee
Erika (soon to be master changer)
3 comments:
Congrats on your new job Erika! I know it's hard to change...I had a hard time giving up nursing to stay at home with Kellon. I remember my last day at work thinking is this the right thing to do??? But I have never regreted puting my career on the back burner for now. But sometimes I debate to take a weekend job in nursing but something inside me says that I want to do something else...I'm sure it's my creative side saying NO to nursing.
But I wish you the best at your new job. See you on Sunday!
Oh... change IS hard, isn't it? But wonderful things can happen when you head off in a new and hopeful direction. Enjoy the journey. It sounds to me like good things are on the horizon...
Erika-I tagged you on my blog. Come see!
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