Bedrest day

I remember it like it was yesterday, what I wore (brown gaucho's and a pink top) and the weather (hot and humid). A year ago today I went on bedrest for 3 months. It was supposed to be a regular ultrasound appt with my perinatologist. Brian was with me and I was so excited to show him how fun it was to see the girls on the detailed u/s machines Dr. Barsoom has. We went through the whole appt. and the girls were just fine. Everything looked great! Then Dr. Barsoom remembered to check my cervix “just to make sure it was doing great like last time” Famous last words. It was NOT doing great. It had shortened. A lot. I was only 23 weeks pregnant, and my cervix was where it should be pretty much close the end. He looked worried, also not great. There was something we could try he said, called a cerclage. Without going into too many details…they basically tie your cervix shut! We had a window of about a week to make the decisionwhether or not to do it. If we decided to, they could do it that night.I knew I should—but it was so scary. Poor Brian was clueless, and freaked out by the whole thing….he just came for a fun ultrasound…not an invasive procedure!!! Anyway we decided to do it, this was serious stuff, and I wasn’t messing around with my babies!!!!!! They took us to labor and delivery (not even a FLOOR you want to be on when you’re 23 weeks pregnant) I was hooked up to a contraction monitor, I thought these silly nurses! I’m not contracting my cervix is just acting up. Wrong again. Dr. Barsoom walked into the room, and again, I’ll never forget his face-He looked at the contraction monitor and said “That’s NOT her data is it???” Well it was, I was contracting every few minutes. Geez. So to shorten this up a bit I had the procedure…they give you a spinal-which work WAY better than anepidural (or 4), in my experience! Turns out I was dilating too, not good, but THANK GOD we made the decision to go ahead with the procedure. I spent that week in the hospital, with worried nurses and residents buzzing around, and words like “not viable” lingering in the air. That’s a long story that if you’re interested is all in the archives of this blog. The bottom line is all that bedrest paid off in my full term (for twins) babies!!!! I think back a whole year ago today and remember how scared we were. All the doubts and unknowns…counting the minutes between contractions and willing them to go away, and praying for every cm of cervix! I can honestly say I have never in my life been more scared…and now, a year later I’ve have never felt more BLESSED.