reflections on three

Last night Brian and I were reminiscing about what we were up to about three years ago. He was laughing about how I'd beg him to roll me over in bed because I couldn't do it by myself anymore and I was remembering the 60+ pound weight gain and my ankles swelling to the size of my thighs.  Yikes.  But that was just the physical stuff.  That's all over now and it was worth every stretch mark and cavity I was left with in the aftermath of carrying my two precious little's.

What has really changed us and left an impact is the everyday responsibility of raising these two little girls.  It is by far far the most difficult and non stop, challenging task I have ever taken on. You guys have read it....there have been really down times (the great operation big girl bed comes to mind, and the winter depression of 2010! ha).  It's also the most unpredictable.   On the same page it's the most rewarding, amazing, life altering, awakening experience, that I'll ever have.  They have changed me, for the better. I like to think I'm a better person because of them.  I want to  lead by example and hopefully they will prosper into self sufficient, successful members of society.  That's the ultimate goal, right?  Life is not about me anymore, or the car I drive, or the job I have...it's about providing for them , and getting to come home to them as fast as I can get there, to play with baby dolls and read Dr. Seuss books over and over.  Are there days where I may drive a little slower to pick them up? Yep.  But overall, they are my joy, my reason for being.

At three these girls are wise beyond their years.  So smart that Brian and I are still trying to figure out where that came from? Maybe that's why they outsmart the both of us on a daily basis. It's funny, they don't consider themselves twins, simply sisters...and I love that.  The are truly individuals and I cannot wait to see what they end up like, who their friends will be, boyfriends, even (gasp).   What sports will they play (we can only hope they get some skills from their daddy) what activities will they want to be in.  It's all so exciting and overwhelming to think about.  They are only three but if these last three years are any indication of how fast life goes when raising children...wow.  This is the first year they are excited about and asking me everyday if it's the birthday yet?  Not yet! Slow down, you are growing up too fast.