Weaning

I'm writing this while Henry is nursing although I really should be memorizing every moment and emotion and the way it feels to hold my sweet boy so close.   I believe we are weaning. For a few weeks now we have been down to just nursing morning and night. And I should say that this had probably been more because of me than him. He doesn't ever cry for it but also didn't turn it down. So no big deal to have a quick morning session before facing the big bad world right?  This weekend the kiddos stayed with Rick and Nancy so I figured it was a good time to drop the morning one. .. he did just fine there and is drinking enough milk out of his cup during the day. Long story short we are now down to just before bed and I can tell there is hardly any milk.  I should also mention so I can remember someday when the memory of all this becomes fuzzy that there's only one side in commission!  Isn't that the weirdest thing? One side just stopped so we went with it.  I'm not really sure how long we have left and I guess we will take one day (night) at a time and I will try to enjoy the last moments of this unexpected amazing gift.

I know I've said it before but I am still shocked that we ended up on this side of the coin...that I'm trying to figure out how to get him (me) to stop after 14 months instead of hoping for just a few weeks like in the beginning. I feel like it has made me more open minded person. .. that may sound like a stretch but really!  I used to think nursing was a bit strange or something I would never do but quickly learned never to say never.  I'm proud of us and proud of my body! It may not be so pretty but it did exactly what it was supposed to for once. Amazing.  It has helped me accept this mommy figure of mine and embrace it more than I ever have before (trust me I will miss having these things! You don't even want to know how many selfies I took of myself with the boobs I always wanted!!!:). We even nursed in public many times (including Adventureland, NE City... that's a funny story, the park,  target,  anywhere my babe needed to eat! ) once we got it down I wasn't worried one bit about it. 

I really am sad that it's coming to an end.  I read somewhere that weaning and ending nursing hormones can be as strong as pregnancy and post partum hormones.   Eek. I'm hoping that because its been gradual we will sail right through. This has truly been one one my proudest accomplishments as silly as that may sound its true! This boy of mine has me wrapped, smitten, and just plain in love. And I'm ok with that.